14/01/2010

Fish was the first person to send me a ‘happy new year’ text. It was a few minutes after mid night. I wasn’t expecting it. We had talked only twice since christmas eve. A few days later he called me to wish me a happy birthday. Our phone conversation sounded as if we’d know each other for sometime and this made me feel good about myself. Here was this guy that I just met. He didn’t know anything about me, yet we were on the phone chatting away like old friends. I really appreciated it. I do, however, want to take things slow. I don’t want to rush into anything because he’s a very decent guy and I would hate myself if for some reason it all turned into a big mess.

12/01/2010

I didn’t make any new year resolution simply because I believe in doing things when I feel like it. I’ve wasted a considerable amount of my life not going for the things I love, so I don’t need resolutions to push me. I will just get up and go for it. I’ve observed my behavior in the past few days and it seems I’m slowly growing up into a different person. It could be due to being a year older but I would like to think that the personal sessions of self-evaluation have really paid off. I find myself being more positive even when things are not on track. I find myself consciously making an effort to be happy. Making an effort to enjoy the little things in life. I love this.

For instance, yesterday my mum called me ( I’m back at uni) and started telling me off for not having agreed with my dad on a particular issue. Yes I did not agree with him. In fact, I blatantly refused to do what he told me to do. It was something to do with my as yet to be determined career. My mum insisted I should apologise and just say yes to his face (and do what I want later) because he’s going through a tough time and feels as if his children don’t look up to him anymore. I do not plan on doing that because I’m not interested in being a hypocrite. I’m an adult and I can choose what I want to do with my life, and I have the right to tell my parents of my position without any fear of upsetting them. I know we are going through a difficult time financially but that does not mean I can’t subscribe to different views from my parents. Afterall, I’m the one living my life and I know myself best. If I succeed, it’s for the good of all in the family.

06/12/2009

There’s only one thing I’ve learnt this year:

Appearances matter. A lot.

And that, folks, is my only new year’s resolution. Work on my appearance. I know I don’t have a lot of money, but I’ll do some sacrificing.